January 28, 2015

the best

It's been a rough past few days. I'm not totally sure why, but my patience with my family has been really short. I think that all the stuff we have going on with buying a house is the biggest factor and knowing that we're going to have to pack up all our stuff again in the next few weeks is (while really exciting) daunting. I have this long list of "to do"s and a teething baby girl who wants to be held all the time. The boys are just being boys (a.k.a. making lots of messes) and I find myself being frustrated and speaking in a way that I'm not proud of. It happens, and I'm trying not to beat myself up about it too much, but I keep hearing one of my favorite quotes over and over in my mind a lot these days... "Never let a problem to be solved become more important than a person to be loved." - Thomas S. Monson.
There are so many women I know who I feel do such a better job at this mom thing than I do (and I'm related to a BUNCH of them), but then I look at my kids and I see them for who they are and I think, "Part of that has to be because of me, right?". There are about a thousand ways to be a good mom and my kids deserve the best. My husband deserves the best. I can't offer them someone else's version of "the best" but I can offer them my best.

Remember "Everybody Loves Raymond"? Man, I loved that show. Anyway, I will always remember a scene where Debra asks Ray, "Doesn't your own family deserve the best of you?" I've thought about that a lot and how sometimes I offer my best to others and my family gets what's left over - which is, often, not much. Anyway, I guess what I'm saying - here in my dirty pajamas and bags under my eyes - is that "tomorrow is a new day, with no mistakes in it yet"... I'm so grateful for forgiving children and a husband who give me second chances. Again and again. :)

1 comment:

  1. Go easy on yourself, you have the toughest job of all. You are raising sweet loving children and it wouldn't be doing them any favors to see you perfect always. I'm sure the same moms you think are doing a better job are feeling just like you feel at times. It's okay to get frazzled, it just means its time for you to go get your hair done and have some time out with you girlfriends. :-)


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